Post by michael on Nov 23, 2020 3:14:39 GMT
Since I had a confessional thread about wanting ice cream, I thought you might be happy to know I did indeed eat ice cream!
Also in more good news, I'm still here!!!!!!!!!!!! A lotttttttt happened last round when I "blew things up" on the tribe. I called with Trey and pretty much told him to stop the bullshit and be straight up with me about things. After talking for about 20 minutes we found out that Rob/Genki had made 4 person chats with both sides! (shocker!!!!!!!!!!!)
This led to us agreeing we had to work together etc. And eventually I believe the vote was going to be Rob unless I'm still being completely played which if that's happened then major props because they're some good actors!
This round has been interesting as well. We had the challenge which Rob/Genki wanted me to throw but I didn't want to and I told them that...however I was a dipshit and didn't practice uploading photos through Imgur like I was warned to (I believed Printscreen would work because it's what I use here in the confessionals) so everything kinda hit the fan and it looked like I threw the challenge. I DID NOT WANT TO THROW IT!! I actually came up with our winning word "Bocces" shoutout to drinking games of Bocce ball which made me think of it. I don't think our score was good at all and we're likely heading to tribal unless some tribe bombed that lol.
I called with Trey and Bridget individually and did my best to A) Make them trust that I want to work with them in the long run (including merge) which is true.... I do want to work with them...I kinda need to don't really have any other options at the moment and
Convince them that Kaitlyn and I still aren't close. I'm a little worried I might be going overboard on separating Kaitlyn and myself from seeming close because now they don't trust her at all and I don't want that to be the case. Bridget even suggested us 3 voting her and getting her out 3-2-1...obviously I won't do that or let that happen but I also want them to trust Kaitlyn...I just don't want it to be through me.
Rob called me and of course was feeding me BS about how good we were etc. and a bunch of other crap. Even though I know he's been pitching getting rid of me to both Kaitlyn and genki (they both told me). Rob has to GTFO. He really is full of his game right now and I know I'm at the bottom of his list so guess where he is on mine!! The one weird thing was Genki throwing Rob under the bus to me before last tribal. It seemed like genki was catching on to the fact that I wasn't with him and Rob and that he wanted the vote to be Rob instead of him. I don't trust Genki at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. Not one bit. I wish I could but he isn't very chatty with me and when he is it's all very calculated and he withholds so much information to the point where I can't work with him. I want Rob to be the vote but if it's Genki that's fine too. I just want Kaitlyn and I to make it off this damn tribe
But yeah, fun times ahead if I do make the merge eh? It sure seems like I am not in a very good spot in the game right now which like not good but also I'm still here so I can't complain. I'm taking this one day at a time and I'm just hoping that Trey/Bridget don't decide to turn on me tomorrow because they easily could. I think I've made it clear to both of them though that they have me....fingers crossed they believe it because I am being real with them (for the most part). Also a fun fact, I keep telling people (when they ask who I was close with on OG Aparri) that Nikki is my closest ally. I feel like Nikki would appreciate me telling people this and it would bring us closer together if she heard that from Trey or Bridget. I just really don't want people to think I'm close with Kyle because that's my guy and I need us to not be perceived as close if we want any shot at going deep. Similar as to how I am with Kaitlyn in that sense.
Anyways that's all for now. Praying I survive tomorrow's potential tribal!!! I really want to make the merge...that's a huge goal of mine
Also in more good news, I'm still here!!!!!!!!!!!! A lotttttttt happened last round when I "blew things up" on the tribe. I called with Trey and pretty much told him to stop the bullshit and be straight up with me about things. After talking for about 20 minutes we found out that Rob/Genki had made 4 person chats with both sides! (shocker!!!!!!!!!!!)
This led to us agreeing we had to work together etc. And eventually I believe the vote was going to be Rob unless I'm still being completely played which if that's happened then major props because they're some good actors!
This round has been interesting as well. We had the challenge which Rob/Genki wanted me to throw but I didn't want to and I told them that...however I was a dipshit and didn't practice uploading photos through Imgur like I was warned to (I believed Printscreen would work because it's what I use here in the confessionals) so everything kinda hit the fan and it looked like I threw the challenge. I DID NOT WANT TO THROW IT!! I actually came up with our winning word "Bocces" shoutout to drinking games of Bocce ball which made me think of it. I don't think our score was good at all and we're likely heading to tribal unless some tribe bombed that lol.
I called with Trey and Bridget individually and did my best to A) Make them trust that I want to work with them in the long run (including merge) which is true.... I do want to work with them...I kinda need to don't really have any other options at the moment and
Convince them that Kaitlyn and I still aren't close. I'm a little worried I might be going overboard on separating Kaitlyn and myself from seeming close because now they don't trust her at all and I don't want that to be the case. Bridget even suggested us 3 voting her and getting her out 3-2-1...obviously I won't do that or let that happen but I also want them to trust Kaitlyn...I just don't want it to be through me. Rob called me and of course was feeding me BS about how good we were etc. and a bunch of other crap. Even though I know he's been pitching getting rid of me to both Kaitlyn and genki (they both told me). Rob has to GTFO. He really is full of his game right now and I know I'm at the bottom of his list so guess where he is on mine!! The one weird thing was Genki throwing Rob under the bus to me before last tribal. It seemed like genki was catching on to the fact that I wasn't with him and Rob and that he wanted the vote to be Rob instead of him. I don't trust Genki at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. Not one bit. I wish I could but he isn't very chatty with me and when he is it's all very calculated and he withholds so much information to the point where I can't work with him. I want Rob to be the vote but if it's Genki that's fine too. I just want Kaitlyn and I to make it off this damn tribe
But yeah, fun times ahead if I do make the merge eh? It sure seems like I am not in a very good spot in the game right now which like not good but also I'm still here so I can't complain. I'm taking this one day at a time and I'm just hoping that Trey/Bridget don't decide to turn on me tomorrow because they easily could. I think I've made it clear to both of them though that they have me....fingers crossed they believe it because I am being real with them (for the most part). Also a fun fact, I keep telling people (when they ask who I was close with on OG Aparri) that Nikki is my closest ally. I feel like Nikki would appreciate me telling people this and it would bring us closer together if she heard that from Trey or Bridget. I just really don't want people to think I'm close with Kyle because that's my guy and I need us to not be perceived as close if we want any shot at going deep. Similar as to how I am with Kaitlyn in that sense.
Anyways that's all for now. Praying I survive tomorrow's potential tribal!!! I really want to make the merge...that's a huge goal of mine