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Post by michael on Dec 2, 2020 6:01:34 GMT
Robbie and I just made a ride or die final 2 on a 50 minute call. Most wild game call I've ever had. I'm fully committed to this, I need him so much and I feel like he's the secret key to me having a shot at getting far in this game. Am I an idiot? Very possible. If I'm getting played here and he's just gonna fuck me over, so be it. I came into this merge in possibly the worst spot in the game so I'm shoving all my chips in on him and hopefully it works. Go big or go home. This is a game winning risk but also a game losing risk.
Robbie: IF THIS DOESN'T WORK, IT WAS YOUR FAULT!
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Post by michael on Dec 2, 2020 6:05:14 GMT
Kaitlyn/Kyle/Nikki if you're reading this, I still love each and every one of you. And I will not betray any of you (hopefully LELELEL). You are all tremendous people and I'm very grateful to have amazing people as my closest allies. BUT I need this relationship with Robbie. I need it bad. And I'm going to have to lie to all of you about it. I am sorry in advance, I just am playing to win. I will still do whatever I can to protect you 3 at all costs, but this is a business move and I came here to win Survivor. Plz don't hate me  Seriously, you're all the best and me doing this deal with Robbie isn't anything against you guys. I just NEED to do this, I'm in such a dogshit spot in the game. And I recognize that me telling Robbie a lot of what y'all tell me is going to hurt your games. And I am sorry for that. I feel a bit slimy doing it. This also might be a ridiculously stupid move on my part by trusting him with everything but I have to take a risk here....I genuinely hope it doesn't hurt your games though...I'm hoping me working with him will actually help your guys. |
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Post by michael on Dec 2, 2020 6:42:13 GMT
For the record, I don’t view robbie as my closest ally over kaitlyn or Kyle or Nikki. I will never betray any of them and want to see all 3 of them succeed in this game and I will be the best damn ally I can be ..to an extent. And that extent is putting my own game first. And that’s essentially what I’m doing with this alliance with Robbie. I’m drowning in this game right now and I’ve recognized the hurdles i would have for several rounds now. Robbie is the kind of alliance that could get me through all of those because no one would ever see it coming.
I’m already feeling slimy about not telling my 3 day 1 aparris about it. I genuinely care about all of them and they’ve all been such amazing allies. But They all realize my game right now is in a lot of danger and I hope when you guys read this afterwards that my alliance with Robbie was in no way shape or form anything against you 3. It’s just one of those things where I have to take a big risk if I want Any realistic shot at making a push for final 3 and this is it. This is the risk. This is the all out move. It could very very very easily backfire and if it does I will own it. I really really hope that this move will end up benefitting you 3 and not hindering.
I will never vote any of you out (unless you fuck me over or something Hahahaha). If I’m in a final 5 with Nikki kaitlyn Kyle Robbie and me then ok I’ll have To do something. What would I do? Who would be my true #1? I honestly do not know. I know this would never be an actual situation which I’m thankful for because the last thing I want to do is betray any of you. It’s more me saying...I genuinely don’t know who my true #1 is. At this point in time I’d probably say Kaitlyn because she’s carried me through some really close times where I could’ve gone home if she hadn’t had my back. Kyle and Nikki were day 1 super close allies and homies tho. So fuck. Basically I don’t know. And I’m sorry I don’t know. I wish I did know. I know it’ll probably never come to a situation where I’d have to choose and I pray that never happens. I guess I now have 4 ride or dies? Yikes. Could get messy. Hopefully it doesn’t
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Post by michael on Dec 2, 2020 6:46:11 GMT
Fuck what am I doing right now? Why am I immediately trusting Robbie. I feel like I’m going to regret this. What am I doingggggg. I feel just instantly bad about my other allies and how this could effect them. Which I guess means I have a heart lol. But also like robbie could definitely be playing me super hard rn. I don’t really know. Might pump the brakes a little on all of that I tell him until I’m more confident he’s as legit as I am here
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Post by michael on Dec 2, 2020 23:26:29 GMT
I’ll do challenge Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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Post by michael on Dec 2, 2020 23:36:30 GMT
I’ll do challenge Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'd like to use my return policy and officially lock in for Challenge B |
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Post by michael on Dec 4, 2020 3:05:46 GMT
I love this game but it’s kicking my ass. I need to just win immunity so at the very least I can rejuvenate myself for a couple days and not stress so much cause it’s really exhausting me at this point and I know there’s so much more game to play and I need to be at my very best
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Post by michael on Dec 4, 2020 3:28:44 GMT
Chris beat me. He showed me his puzzle, wow. Smart guy! Kinda poetic he won, happy for kaitlyn to win.
Wish I was safe but tomorrow I’m gonna be on the hot seat, fun times ahead
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Post by michael on Dec 4, 2020 6:41:27 GMT
I will do a breakdown of everyone in the game tomorrow and how I feel about them. But pretty much here is a shortened version:
Ride or Dies:
Kaitlyn, Kyle, Nikki. #AparriStrong baby! I care about all 3 of them and will not double cross any of them. I want them to succeed in this game , but it’s quickly getting complicated because kaitlyn and Nikki do not get along and I just want them to be friends so my life is easier. At this point though, I would say I am closer to kaitlyn than I am Nikki and Kyle. It just comes down to the loyalty she showed on our first swap tribe together and I really believe she is a ride or die type of player. Kyle has been making me a little bit more nervous lately about potentially having an idol and I know he’s closer with a lot of other people he doesn’t tell me about. I still love the guy though and hopefully he isn’t playing me. Nikki is amazing. I feel bad for things I kept from her earlier in the game but I truly believe I am her closest ally. I have her back completely and really enjoy our conversations.
Also yes I realize that having 3 ride or dies is 2 too many. It’s not my fault I became friends with these people!! I will not turn my back on any of them unless they do something to me first.
People I have their back but not on the level above:
Robbie and Trey
Robbie and I made a final 2 pact but I really feel like I’ve been giving more in the relationship than he is. I’m always giving game info and he rarely does. I also feel like he will never 100% trust me which is just always gonna make me nervous. I gave him my word and swore it was real, and it was, but as the days go by the more I second guess this. However, I do believe it’s still my most important relationship because if it’s legit then it can win me this game. Trey is an amazing ally. I really like him and glad things turned around with us in this game. I’m just simply not as close to him as I am the 3 above because I’ve just known them longer and spent way more time with them. But I do not want to betray trey at any point and I do trust him. He’s a good guy.
People I am technically working with but sketched about it:
Genki and Willow.
Genki always says things that make me believe he has my back but I can’t forget that I did wrong him and I do think he’s a sneaky player. He’s another really good person but I get nervous that he will backstab me at some point and I’d rather do it first before he can. I need to wait and see with him but he could be another great ally if it’s trustworthy. Willow absolutely shot herself in the foot this round by leaking our split plan to Angelica. Everyone in the game knows About it now and doesn’t trust her including me. I’m hoping kaitlyn can find out more about where she really stands. She also just really doesn’t talk to me much 1 on 1 I don’t feel very close to her but she might just be less chatty in general.
People I’m not speaking to:
Molly. And that’s ok. It makes it easy for me to say a name when people ask and if people know I have a target then they might not worry about where I stand as much.
The others:
Chris, Angelica, Olivia
Angelica wants to work with me. She’s very close with Nikki it seems but has said good things. I like her a lot, very bold very straight forward, I could see things working out with her and Nikki. Olivia is in the best spot in this game and she is not at all close to me. In a perfect scenario I’d get her out now while I can but it’s impossible. All I can do is slowly make people realize her position and eventually she will
Become a target. Until then I just want to be on her good side. She’s easily one of the easiest peiple to talk to on this tribe and I do love our talks about life. Chris. Chris Chris Chris. That son of a gun. I don’t want to give any false hope here but I think there’s potential for us to work together in the future during this merge. He’s smart and realizes we’re being pinned against each other and it’s gonna hurt us both. It’s a wait and see with Chris but there’s potential.
So yeah I guess I’m working with a lot of people, eh? I’m sure no one will find out 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I love this game man. So much fun. Just gonna send it this entire merge and see how much damage I can do. Playing with no expectations and nothing to lose is where I thrive most and I’m glad that’s the situation I’m in. I like to have a chip on my shoulder and feel like I have something to prove. Maybe I’m completely misreading my position in the game and I’m actually in a good spot. But even if that was the case, I don’t want to be comfortable. I want to mentally believe that I’m in trouble every round so that I don’t get cocky and don’t play safe. Go big or go home baby. Let’s have some fun tomorrow
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Post by michael on Dec 4, 2020 6:42:03 GMT
As I was typing that ^ I realized I was basically doing a breakdown so LOL yeah that’s it.
I’ll do a video with any developments later
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Post by michael on Dec 4, 2020 22:34:34 GMT
My operation ghost modes continue to work flawlessly. I made my relationships with Chris and molly so bad on the last tribe that now when I say something they actually believe it and I think they know I’m not gonna Bs them. There could be soemthing in the works this round To shock a lot of people. We will see
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Post by michael on Dec 5, 2020 1:56:37 GMT
So I'm now working with Chris also. Lol. So chris and robbie are both supposedly protecting me from being the vote. Everyone is telling me I'm good this round and that I should be ok. Which yay! But also could all be a lie to get me comfortable and not play an idol. But I don't have an idol anyways so like, da fuck do I do. I don't feel great about just voting Molly but it's gonna depend on what trey/nikki/chris are willing to do
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