Post by kyle on Dec 4, 2020 0:02:13 GMT
I have truly no idea where to begin. I guess I'll start off by listing everything I think I've done wrong in the past couple days:
I've given Jordan a ton of shit these past couple days, and I know that's pretty unfair to do since he's not here to defend himself. But like, goddamn dude, if you have info, leverage it while you're in the game to try to stay and be an active participant, rather than spew it all when you lose because you want to save face. I know I'm coming off bitter, because I am bitter. It sucks that my game has this dark cloud over it because of something someone said while they WERE NO LONGER IN THE GAME. It's lame. I'm done complaining now (although I will continue to shit on him to people in the game to undermine his credibility).
I think the reason I've been playing so poorly the past couple days is because I don't have an objective. There's no particular person I need to see go first, so I've been passively conversing instead of actively strategizing, which has led me to have multiple slip-ups, because I haven't kept track of who knows what. My messy gameplay now could cost me later, so I need to get my shit together ASAP.
I've had my establishing conversations with everybody, so the "What Was This Tribe Like" discussions should be done. That removes a lot of opportunity for me to fuck things up. I still think my strategy of hanging back and letting other people drive things is a valid strategy, but I need to do it with more intention. Hanging back means not offering up all my information, and instead holding onto it to reveal when I see fit. I've been too loose-lipped and it's caused a lot of problems and dissent amongst people I trust (Kaitlyn distrusts Trey, Nikki distrusts Michael, etc.). I think I can play it off like I'm an idiot, which is a good thing for people to think I am right now. If I do great things from here on out, I can claim this was my plan all along.
Also, generally, I don't know what the fuck is going on with Willow. I cannot read her. I don't know if she trusts me or not. I don't think there's anyone she'd turn on me in favor of right now but the uncertainty is scary and I have to make a decision soon on whether I trust her. Right now, I'm leaning no.
I can't wait to vote. I feel like a lot of my questions will be answered, and I'll have concrete evidence to base decisions on. Assuming I stay, which is always a big maybe. And so is this:
Maybe.
- Fumbled my damage control with Nikki about the numerous alliances Michael and I had on OG Aparri. I may have saved this one by openly discussing Michael's potential blindside with her, but I think she doubts me a bit now, and that isn't good for me in the long term.
- Lied to Olivia's face about the Chris/Molly split plan and got CLOCKED for it. I tried to cover by expressing to Olivia how alone and lost I am in the game so far, and promising that I'm only lying out of self-preservation. I don't think she bought it.
- Assumed everybody knew about the Chris/Molly split, so brought it up to Genki who had NO CLUE. If it wasn't common knowledge already, it is now. I'm trying to pin this on Willow because I know she told Angelica, so it could be believable that a game of telephone from there included Genki.
- Accidentally sewed distrust between Kaitlyn and Trey by telling Kaitlyn that the split plan had leaked, prompting her to be CERTAIN that it was Trey who leaked it. This one might turn out fine, and I hope it does because I have no plan for if it doesn't.
- Existed (because apparently this was enough to make Jordan want to throw me under the bus for shit I didn't do).
I've given Jordan a ton of shit these past couple days, and I know that's pretty unfair to do since he's not here to defend himself. But like, goddamn dude, if you have info, leverage it while you're in the game to try to stay and be an active participant, rather than spew it all when you lose because you want to save face. I know I'm coming off bitter, because I am bitter. It sucks that my game has this dark cloud over it because of something someone said while they WERE NO LONGER IN THE GAME. It's lame. I'm done complaining now (although I will continue to shit on him to people in the game to undermine his credibility).
I think the reason I've been playing so poorly the past couple days is because I don't have an objective. There's no particular person I need to see go first, so I've been passively conversing instead of actively strategizing, which has led me to have multiple slip-ups, because I haven't kept track of who knows what. My messy gameplay now could cost me later, so I need to get my shit together ASAP.
I've had my establishing conversations with everybody, so the "What Was This Tribe Like" discussions should be done. That removes a lot of opportunity for me to fuck things up. I still think my strategy of hanging back and letting other people drive things is a valid strategy, but I need to do it with more intention. Hanging back means not offering up all my information, and instead holding onto it to reveal when I see fit. I've been too loose-lipped and it's caused a lot of problems and dissent amongst people I trust (Kaitlyn distrusts Trey, Nikki distrusts Michael, etc.). I think I can play it off like I'm an idiot, which is a good thing for people to think I am right now. If I do great things from here on out, I can claim this was my plan all along.
Also, generally, I don't know what the fuck is going on with Willow. I cannot read her. I don't know if she trusts me or not. I don't think there's anyone she'd turn on me in favor of right now but the uncertainty is scary and I have to make a decision soon on whether I trust her. Right now, I'm leaning no.
I can't wait to vote. I feel like a lot of my questions will be answered, and I'll have concrete evidence to base decisions on. Assuming I stay, which is always a big maybe. And so is this:
Maybe.