These first 5 days have been....humbling. I came into the game thinking I'd probably be a little rusty but what I've realized is that I just can't play the game exactly the way that I used to. I'm a different player and a different person so I need to adapt to that. I thought I could come in here and be good with everyone, control the direction of the tribe with votes, and play this great strategic game...LOL. That hasn't happened!
Instead, what I've learned is that I need to just take a step back and really start focusing on playing the players rather than the game. It's become clear to me that this tribe is VERY dynamic and very all over the place...it's essentially going to be impossible to control how anyone does anything here! But what I can do is focus on the key element of this game: SURVIVING. And to do that, I need to make sure that people have reasons to keep me around. It's so early in the game and I just want to make sure I'm not playing a game that will get me booted before I get a chance to really make some noise.
Here is where I'm at with people on this tribe currently:
Kyle - Ride or Die. This is my home boy, I trust him with my entire game (he pretty much knows it all at this point) and he's probably actually doing better than me on this tribe because he's more social with people like Suzi and Sam than I have been. I recognize he's a huge threat but he's also looking out for me and that's perfect for me now.
Nikki - I very much am working with Nikki! I never wanted to vote for her last round and I'm really glad she's still here because she just really seems like a genuine person/honest player and that's something not many of us on this tribe can say. I trust her completely and believe she has my back.
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Here's where I get nervous LOL:
Sam - I think I can trust Sam? I'm in a 3 person chat with her and Kyle that she suggested a couple days ago, and I'm also in a chat with her/kyle/nikki/jordan. Sam seems to not be the most active player in the world but when she does talk to me it sounds legit. I don't think she has any reason to betray me right now but I do need to work on that individual relationship so it isn't just Kyle getting close to her.
Jordan - Jordan is sketching me TF out. He was super quiet on our group call last night and Kyle also mentioned feeling really bad vibes from Jordan yesterday. Supposedly he's working with us but he's just either a really really quiet player who doesn't want to say anything of substance OR he's not really with us and is going to screw us over. That is what we need to try and figure out today before tribal. He also might have the idol, currently if anyone does I'd say it's him or Logan.
Logan - Nope. Night one I said this guy gave me a bad feeling and I was correct. He clearly has me on his radar....it might not be RIGHT now (or maybe it is) but regardless I need him gone. His game is very erratic and he's willing to turn on people at any moment. I don't trust anything he says and hopefully we're able to vote him out tonight (if we lose). That's the goal at least
Kaitlyn - Like I said in my video confessional, she was the one player who my read on was COMPLETELY off. I thought she would just be a very loyal under the radar player...WRONG! She definitely, similar to Logan, has been playing super hard (probably too hard) with many different alliances, ones she has not told me about. I thought we were going to be very close in this game but that's out the window at this point. I think maybe if Logan is blindsided out of here...I could potentially repair that? Probably not. Unfortunately I don't trust her anymore.
Suzi - Just nothing of substance here. We've finally started messaging a little bit more but I think we've both come to the realization we're not going to be working together in this game.
So yeah, there is where I'm at LOL...not the best I know. I could definitely go tonight...hopefully not! I actually am very much hoping for a swap or something to switch things up. I just don't feel comfortable with this group....everything changes on the hour and it could land on me at any moment.
No matter what happens though, I'm having FUN and am very thankful I'm getting this opportunity to play!
